What did abandoned kids experience?

A much better writer and public speaker published her blog yesterday about how much trauma her abandoned two year old son experienced that she will never know. It sounded a bell in my heart. This blog has been about Cori, but she would never be with us if we had not gone on a journey 7 years ago for Jena and 5 years ago for Lily. Last night was a big reminder as our region experienced violent and destructive storms. Lily wrapped her long and skinny body around mine from fear. She used to wake up in the car and she went ballistic if she did not know where we were. On our second trip to the beach she managed to lock herself into a closet. When I found her she was soaked in sweat and said she never wanted to go to the beach again. She was 7 weeks old when her mother left her at the base of a statue in a public park. She used to bite herself and bang her head on the floor. Today she melted in grief because Cori made a face at her. How can we fix what we do not know? Only God can do that. ......God, please enable us to be what our children really need.

Jena was 12 weeks old when she was abandoned. We know for a fact that her orphanage is a desperate place. One day after we got her she saw the orphanage director. She poured out silent tears that covered her shirt. She used to break down for no reason we could imagine. She was 6 before this stupid state would agree she was deaf......and even after 7 years of our unconditional love and her father's worship......she pulls our her eyelashes and eyebrows at night.

Her daddy was in the yard with her this weekend. The insurance is refusing to pay or the dr that puts the device in her mouth that holds the bone graft from her hip together. Her hip is still black......that was July 3 of last year.

Wes has said that if we won the publisher's house sweepstakes he would build a wing and bring in another dozen.

But last year we paid over 1 sixth of his take home pay for medical bills....not counting what he pays out of pocket to get the coverage. Not counting dental or prescriptions.

Whine whine whine.

And this relentless old woman keeps bringing faces before him.

So...you read because of Cori. We will get a second opinion the end of April......but all research says that the only way a child with her condition achieves urinary continence is with a catheter.

Good news.....it will be in her stomach, not her private access. She is in daily pain for the rash her condition causes. I found $10 plus wipes and we are trying combination of lotrimon af and cortizone to relieve her pain. She cries out....you hurt my bum. Breaks our hearts.