Conundrum

Conundrum. What is this? Well, my brother-in-law ordered it the only time we ever went out as two couples. Easy answer....really nice table wine. Harder...a decision with more than two possible answers. My conundrum. And that of all moms. How to hold on loosely to your children.....especially to your older ones, while wanting to cling to them. How to breathe your children into your heart... only to tell them to fly away. How to trust God with them when they have taken another path..

A baby I got to care for at VBS was close to a clone of my daughter, Jessica, born over 25 years ago. It reminded me of the days I could hold her forever, breathe her in, kiss her cheeks.

Cori could not stop touching me today. She ran after me in the garage to tell me she loved me. By about 9 pm, with no hubby at home, I was over the physical contact. I now know that it was because I had Red Hots.....But how could I push her away when I know how quickly that will happen naturally?

The hospital in Ohio has given us a plan. No dates, just a plan. X rays of sacrum because that indicates the future of bowel continence, films of renal system, voiding cystogram, contrast enema, sedated exam by three specialties, urodynamics study with electrodes, blood work, gynecology attending sedated exam and meeting in clinic, 5 day bowel management study beginning with a 2 hours lecture followed by an abdominal x-ray, clinic with all three specialists, then a recommendations for her enema routine. Then we go to the hotel or Ronald McDonald house to do three days of the enemas while I record our results. Monday we report for the results and another x-ray and clinic. If they say surgery is needed we might be offered the opportunity to do it then.

It will be me and Cori for these 8 days plus travel. My precious husband cannot leave work and the other children for that long.

My personal conviction is that Cori will be successful with enemas but will need the urinary surgery. So, the prayer requests might be....."Grant complete insurance approval....grant federal approval status....make a way for all to be done at that visit.....mae it all as simple as possible, but equip for every possibility and grant grace to all!!! Show the glory of God in everything. Take great and precious care of all who remain in Fairview. You amde Jiang Yi Hua, Corin Malia Wright. You knit her together in her mother's womb She is fearfully and wonderfully made. You know the plans you have for her, plans to prosper her, not to harm her, to give her a future and a hope. Fulfill this great word for her!"